home is where your heart is- mine ain't there anymore.

so i am officially counting down the hours, no- minutes... no- seconds- until we can afford to move out of our house. it makes me miserable. yes, MISERABLE. let's go over the crappy things, shall we?

1. it's a REALLY old house, so there's no insulation... it's COLD in the winter and HOT in the summer.
2. bugs get in. i don't know where they come from- but we've got TONS of bugs in our house, no matter how many times we spray for them.
3. the house is on a pier and beam foundation, so things LIVE under our house... rattlesnakes, mice, rats- and we have a new addition- but we'll discuss that in a bit.
4. the road we live on is 70 mph.
5. we don't have a fenced in yard- so we can't get a dog (because of the 70 mph road, too!)
6. there are stickers EVERYWHERE- so Lincoln can't play outside much
7. we have seen rattlesnakes on our back porch and right outside a window, and we KNOW they live under our house. ick!
8. we live in the middle of a bunch of cotton fields. they're only farmed a small part of the year. unfarmed land + wind = LOTS of dirt = a DIRTY HOUSE (the windows leak- it's an OLLLD house!)
9. the newest residents under our house are a family of SKUNKS!
10. the skunks have brought their FLEAS with them. the fleas now live in our home. they bite us. we discovered them when we came home from Oklahoma on January 7. we have treated the house for them like 6 times. we stayed at scott's mom's house for 3 or 4 days, went home- and noticed NO FLEAS. we were uber excited...
11. the skunks SPRAYED under our house- it happened in the middle of the night- woke scott and me up. it was HORRIBLE- it's not like when you smell one when you're driving in your car. when one sprays that close to you, it like burns your throat every time you breathe in. we moved out of our house again for 3 more days.
12. we went home TODAY- the skunk smell has finally subsided enough to be able to BREATHE- we eat dinner, unpack, get Link ready for bead... and guess what? FLEAS! F*^&KING FLEAS!!!!!! there were SIX on me at once!
at this point i broke down crying- i just can't handle this anymore! scott insisted that he WASN'T leaving, so i packed up and Lincoln and I left and now we're here at my parents' house. when we got here, we got ready for baths, and found 4 more fleas on me and about 8 on Lincoln. SO DISGUSTING!

so basically, i don't feel 'at home' in my "HOME" anymore. every time i go there, it makes me cringe. i want to move. i want a house that's on a CONCRETE foundation- in town- with no wild country animals- and a fenced in backyard where Lincoln can play- and a dog- and central heat and air- and INSULATION.... oh- and MORE THAN ONE BATHROOM.

this is depressing. yeah, like, uber depressed and stressed over here.

there is a pain

my lack of blogging these last few weeks appalls me, as it should you. shame on me for being a lazy blogger, but now i feel the need, and so i must. let's get started, shall we?

it has been a crazy busy year thus far, even if we are only 18 days in.

1. Fireworks... even though TECHNICALLY it was last year- there was about 1 day's work in 2007.
2. Rebekah's wedding. January 6. on the 4th, i rode up to Oklahoma City with my mom, my sister, and Lincoln... the 5th was full of luncheon, rehearsal, rehearsal dinner, and things of that nature. Scott did not come to OKC until the morning of the wedding. that day was filled with running around like chickens with our heads cut off, singing in the wedding, freaking out before and during singing so much that my heart was beating so fast- i couldn't feel my hands..., reception, then a little party @ my aunt and uncle's house after the wedding... the 7th involved a 5 hour trip home with my husband and son. it was a hectic weekend.
3. we came home to FLEAS. yes, there were FLEAS in our house! and this makes NO sense because we don't have any pets!!! it took us about a week and a half to finally get rid of them. i THINK they are gone, but i am not positive. they are sooo gross!
4. then there was the huge ice storm, which was from Friday January 12 until this morning. We were stuck inside without leaving for about 3 days. this West Texas town was BELOW FREEZING for about 134 hours. which, BTW, is NOT a record- though it feels like it should be. the record is 180 hours (7 1/2 days). we were about 2 days short to break the record. TODAY is the first day since last Friday afternoon that we have been above freezing.
5. tonight, another round of wetness, followed by freezing temperatures is coming. then what looks like a repeat of last weekend- which will probably involve being stuck indoors again for a couple days.
6. about 30 minutes ago i found out that i have what seems to be a stomach ulcer. HOORAY! i have always had a finicky stomach- i inherited my bad stomach from my dad... and his dad... but lately it has been bothering more than usual. my Dr. said he's about 90% sure that it's an ulcer- but if i'm not better in a few weeks, i have to go back to the Dr. for blood tests because i could possibly have gall bladder disease or something even more serious. thankfully, he's almost positive it's an ulcer. either way, i feel like total crap. i feel nauseated 60% of the day. that's 60% all the 24 hours in one day... what is that? about 14 1/2 hours a day... not that i've actually COUNTED the hours that i feel poorly, but i'm guesstimating 60% of them.

Lincoln is a freaking pest. I mean, i love the kid to death- but he's going through this serious defiant stage... driving me up the wall! at the same time, i've got some baby fever going on- - then i start to think about having TWO kids. it totally freaks me out- hahaha.

we are selling scott's truck this month. hopefully before our truck payment is due on the 28th. his truck had some body damage- which is going to cost like $1200 to get fixed- thank goodness for insurance!!! so yeah we're getting it fixed and then selling it so we can start saving up some money and hopefully move into a new house at some point this year (oh please LORD!)

ok um i'm out of things to say, plus i think this is long enough anyway... hope you are all doing well