home is where your heart is- mine ain't there anymore.

so i am officially counting down the hours, no- minutes... no- seconds- until we can afford to move out of our house. it makes me miserable. yes, MISERABLE. let's go over the crappy things, shall we?

1. it's a REALLY old house, so there's no insulation... it's COLD in the winter and HOT in the summer.
2. bugs get in. i don't know where they come from- but we've got TONS of bugs in our house, no matter how many times we spray for them.
3. the house is on a pier and beam foundation, so things LIVE under our house... rattlesnakes, mice, rats- and we have a new addition- but we'll discuss that in a bit.
4. the road we live on is 70 mph.
5. we don't have a fenced in yard- so we can't get a dog (because of the 70 mph road, too!)
6. there are stickers EVERYWHERE- so Lincoln can't play outside much
7. we have seen rattlesnakes on our back porch and right outside a window, and we KNOW they live under our house. ick!
8. we live in the middle of a bunch of cotton fields. they're only farmed a small part of the year. unfarmed land + wind = LOTS of dirt = a DIRTY HOUSE (the windows leak- it's an OLLLD house!)
9. the newest residents under our house are a family of SKUNKS!
10. the skunks have brought their FLEAS with them. the fleas now live in our home. they bite us. we discovered them when we came home from Oklahoma on January 7. we have treated the house for them like 6 times. we stayed at scott's mom's house for 3 or 4 days, went home- and noticed NO FLEAS. we were uber excited...
11. the skunks SPRAYED under our house- it happened in the middle of the night- woke scott and me up. it was HORRIBLE- it's not like when you smell one when you're driving in your car. when one sprays that close to you, it like burns your throat every time you breathe in. we moved out of our house again for 3 more days.
12. we went home TODAY- the skunk smell has finally subsided enough to be able to BREATHE- we eat dinner, unpack, get Link ready for bead... and guess what? FLEAS! F*^&KING FLEAS!!!!!! there were SIX on me at once!
at this point i broke down crying- i just can't handle this anymore! scott insisted that he WASN'T leaving, so i packed up and Lincoln and I left and now we're here at my parents' house. when we got here, we got ready for baths, and found 4 more fleas on me and about 8 on Lincoln. SO DISGUSTING!

so basically, i don't feel 'at home' in my "HOME" anymore. every time i go there, it makes me cringe. i want to move. i want a house that's on a CONCRETE foundation- in town- with no wild country animals- and a fenced in backyard where Lincoln can play- and a dog- and central heat and air- and INSULATION.... oh- and MORE THAN ONE BATHROOM.

this is depressing. yeah, like, uber depressed and stressed over here.