April 21 BLESSINGS

What a good day today has been. Nothin out of the ordinary or exceptional, just an overall nice day. it even involved LAUNDRY and i'm STILL calling it a nice day!

so, it rained like CRAZY here... and i know it rained everywhere in the "Big Country", but where we live, we got 4 1/2 INCHES OF RAIN in 12 HOURS!!!! i'm not even exaggerating a little bit. overall we got 4 3/4 inches... can you believe that? i've never seen anything like it- our rain gauge was about to overflow! it's awesome... not burn bans have been lifted, and it's looking UP for the the sale of fireworks this summer... hopefully it keeps raining so we don't have to close down less than 24 hours after we open (like we did this past New Year's- that sucked SO BAD! we LOST money...)
i HATE storms, but i like the end result (as long as there are no tornadoes involved)

i am about to grab my kiddo, head to the in-laws' house, and enjoy a nice baseball game (Cubs @ Cardinals) and possibly some pizza. that sounds like a great combination.

*Lincoln just awoke from his nap... i am in the next room and just heard him singing "Halleluiah! Halleluiah!" what a good funny boy i have. he is unbelievable. being a parent is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me. if you have not experienced it, i hope you get the chance to... it's such a blessing.

GOOD NEWS EVERYBODY! Scott got a major PROMOTION. indeed it is very very good news for our family. mostly for him though because he has been working so hard for years with no good end result, and now we think he's found a job he can stay with until it's retirement time... but anyway, he is now a DISTRICT MANAGER, so that's super great news for him.
when scott was down about th fact that jobs weren't working out, i kept telling him that God had something GREAT in store for us.... now look what's happening for scott!

SO WE SAY WITH CONFIDENCE, THE LORD IS MY HELPER; I WILL NOT BE AFRAID ....HEBREWS 13:6
AMEN!

Easter weekend misc.

How was eveyrone's Easter? Mine was fantabulous. yes, i am choosing to use that word.
So on Saturday there was this Easter Egg hunt that was NUTS. there ended up being EIGHT children 2 years of age and YOUNGER... and then there were two 4 year olds. none of the little kids cared about the eggs, really... it was more like "Mommy boss your kids around day" because everyone was going "here's an egg, pink it up. pick it up! pick it up!" PLUS, there were probably at LEAST 17 or 18 adults. it was a lot of fun, though... and i really enjoyed some of Lincoln's candy.
THEN on Sunday, i had to be IN CLYDE by 8:00am, and it's a 30 minute drive to Clyde... so we woke up freaking early, got ready for church, and headed to Clyde... Matt, Mitsi, and I sang with my parents' church's choir (my mom is in the choir too)... we sang the Halleluiah Chorus and it was pretty... we had to sing at both services which was nuts.
Then we went back to the parentals' and had a AWESOME lunch. you should be so jealous. we had THANKSGIVING for Easter! oh yeah, turkey, dressing, gravy, mashed potatoes, salad, green beans, sweet potato casserole (which is like a dessert, it's unbelievable), pink salad, rolls. OH it was amazing.
Then my mom had a little mini Easter Egg hunt for Lincoln, and he really couldn't have cared any less... he's go pink up one egg, and since he now knows that there are GOODIES hidden inside the eggs, he would pick it up, bring it to my mom (Nana) and say "open! open!" so that he could eat what was in the egg. hilarious.

overall, it was a great weekend. i got to spend time with the entire family (Dad, Mom, Mitsi, Matt, Candace, Scott, Lincoln, and myself) and that was great. Matt's a busy guy so we don't get to see him that often- even though he LIVES HERE... but whatever. we have so much fun together. we're all huge dorks, but it's great.

i hope everyone else's weekend was good too! and i hope you all remembered what EASTER is all about... HE IS RISEN! HALLELUIAH!

SO annoying!

April 15, 6:14 am

so yeah, check the time PEOPLE! ...not on your clock, but the time this freaking bulletin was posted. yeah. messed up.

so i woke up cold at 5:20(ish)am and i was thinking that if I was cold, Lincoln was probably cold. so i went to his room to check on him, and sure enough, he was very very COLD! so, i turned off his air conditioner, got a blanket, covered him up, went to the restroom, moved the clothes that i'm wearing tomorrow from the washer to the dryer, and crawled back into bed....i laid in bed for about 45 minutes and NOTHING. i got really comfy, but COULD NOT get sleepy! so now i'm awake. scott and lincoln are both sleeping. both of them WILL be sleeping for about 3 more hours... and here i am, awake, on myspace, because i have nothing better to do. i mean, i actually HAVE better stuff to do... i could be SLEEPING! but NOOO! i actually should do some laundry or something and make use of this time. but i just don't want to. so i won't. so there.

so today i'm taking Lincoln to this Easter egg hunt over at some dear family friends' place.... it will be way fun.....maybe. haha, it will be hectic! there will be SIX... count 'em, SIX children ages 2 yrs. and younger... and then a 4 year old. yeah. i know. it will be nuts. and then there will be 4 mommies and 3 grandmothers, and an aunt (my sister) chasing all the kids around. it's nice to know that the kids do not outnumber the adults. that comes in handy when you need one person to wrangle one kid, it's a whole lot easier. whose kid do i get? do i get my own? or does my mom get mine? or does my SISTER get mine? all i know is, Lincoln will probably find ONE egg, sit down in the grass, and proceed to open it, get the candy out, eat it, and then sit there playing with that ONE EGG for the entirety of the "hunt". (hmm.. the word "entirety" sure looks like it's spelled wrong... but i did the spell check and it's correct, but it DOES look weird)

LALALALALAaA i want to SLEEEEEP i am AWAAAAAKE and it really SUUUUUCKS.
(think of that last part a bit sing-song-ish.)

and i got on here thinking "this will be a great way to waste time! i will just fill out bulletins." there are NONE. bring on the disappointment.

um ok i suppose i will do something else now... maybe... check my email?
THIS SUUUUUUCCCKKKS!!!!!!

what if?

first of all, i must say that i am very, unbelievably, extremely sad about the madonna concert situation.... she is not coming to texas, damn her. and i've gotta add that i really enjoy the comments from all my friends who can AFFORD to buy plane tickets to fly to chicago... and tickets to see her LIVE in the windy city... (jk you guys i'm not mad... just soooo jealous). sad day for melanie.

second of all, the "second of all" is MUCH longer and deeper than the "first of all.

i think there is something about always wanting whatever it is that you don't have. i think that is part of being human. for some reason it seems like we are never satisfied. at the same time, i could totally tell people that i am satisfied with my life and not be lying. but deep inside of me there's like this little dark corner of all the things i had to give up when i got pregnant and started my family.... it's just one of those things that will stay hidden from the outside world i suppose. one of these days i would like to go on vacation by myself for a couple of days and see old friends and just let loose. life is so strange. i mean, my family is unbelievable. and even if i could change things, i wouldn't... i guess there will always just be that question in my brain... "what if...?"
i tell you what else i do not like. getting older. it is so strange to see all of the people my age graduating from college, getting married, having kids, moving away. even though i'm still so young i feel like so much of my life is behind me already. it makes me wonder what i'll feel like when i'm old.... like if i made it all count or if it just went by in a blur the way the past 22 years seem to have done. i remember being young and praying for the day when i would be old enough to drive, date, buy tobacco, buy alcohol... and once i turned 21 it's like "oh crap! there are no more birthdays to look forward to. only getting older."
sometimes i sit around and think about how bizarre life is. and ponder the question that no one will ever have an answer to.... why am i here? even if i think i know, or if i'm sure that i know- there's always that doubt in my brain. like- what would be happening right now if things were different? if i had stayed in school and stayed in dallas and if i were single and still partying? would i have gotten any good acting gigs? ...and no one will ever know...
but i AM happy. i love my husband and my son is the greatest thing that's ever happened to me.... i wouldn't trade that for the world... but still, WHAT IF?
i feel like i just poured my heart out...